Rite of Passage

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''Today is Monday'', the 26th of September. The weather is nice. I like the colours of the Indian summer. We played cops and robbers today, the whole class, during the big break. "You filled the courtyard with life like never before. Everyone's been talking about it in the staff room." Ms. Cloels told us afterwards. One time, I tried to catch |dp>[(link-goto: "Christine", "Dramatis Personae")], but she is bigger than me and faster. She doesn't turn her knees in awkwardly when she's running, like so many of the other girls. |c1>[Finally, when I had managed to corner her... ]\ |c2>[I gave up chasing her... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[Finally, when I had managed to corner her, she said she wasn't playing any more. When I asked why she told me playing cops and robbers was childish.\ { (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?dp)[Christine]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 2A")]]\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "Christine is very mature and doesn't play games like little children do."))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I gave up chasing her and guarded the prison instead until the end of the break. I couldn't prevent a couple of escapes, though.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?dp)[Christine]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 2B")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "Christine is very sporty. She's faster than many of the boys."))\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Christine>[Christine]"))\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "I don't know much about her and I haven't really spoken to her either. Michael says she's in the basketball and drama clubs."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Wednesday'', the 7th of December. The sky is grey. It's dark when I leave and as I return. Mama and Papa took me to the concert hall yesterday. There was a screening of "The Gold Rush" by Charlie Chaplin. The music for this silent film was performed by a full philharmonic orchestra. I liked the film, it was funny. I also liked the music. Listening to a live orchestra performance is very different from listening to the radio or tape deck. Today, in school, |dp>[(link-goto: "David", "Dramatis Personae")] told me about this computer programming thing he does. Apparently he wants to make a video game himself and has spent the last few days learning how to do it. He asked me what I did yesterday. |c1>[I told him about the film at the concert hall... ]\ |c2>[I told him I went to the cinema... ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I told him about the film at the concert hall. He said that sounded "spacey".\ { (replace: ?dp)[David]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 3B")]]\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David is into computers, but he's cool with classical music, too."))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I told him I went to the cinema. He asked which movie I'd watched. { (replace: ?dp)[David]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "I told him about the film at the opera house... ")[I told him about the film at the concert hall. He said that wasn't a cinema and of course he was right about that.\ { (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $firstYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 3B")]]\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David doesn't give away a lot about himself. Maybe that's a smart move."))\ } ]\ ]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "I made up some story about a film I'd heard about... ")[I made up some story about a film I'd heard about. He lost interest after a while and said he had something to do and left.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 3A")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "I think David sees right through me when I make up stories."))\ } ]\ ]\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|David>[David]"))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David joined our class two month late, I don't know why. He doesn't talk much, but when he does, it's usually pretty smart. Like he'll sit quietly for twenty minutes in class listening to the discussion about the interpretation of some poem before solving the mystery in three words."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Wednesday'', the 7th of December. The sky is grey. It's dark when I leave and as I return. We had art class yesterday and we were drawing our own portraits (we used a mirror). Mr. Commit told us to draw slowly and watch closely where the shadows go. I did as he said and I'm happy with my picture. Of course, not everyone liked it as much as I did. At the next table |dp>[(link-goto: "Phillip was telling Richard", "Dramatis Personae")] about some music videos he'd seen on TV. Suddenly Anna asked me what music I listened to. |c1>[I said Mariah Carey... ]\ |c2>[I told her I had no idea about current music... ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I said Mariah Carey, the only name that came to my mind from listening to my sister's radio. That got me a strange look from Anna. She asked me if I wanted to have a poster of her, since she had one from a magazine and didn't want it herself. { (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "She seems to have gotten into music."))\ (replace: ?dp)[Phillip was telling Richard]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "I said I'd like the poster... ")[I said I'd like the poster, and this morning she turned up with it. Before I could put it away safely in my bag, Phillip snatched it and paraded it around the room, saying "Can you believe this? This guy is seriously in love with Mariah Carey." Some others joined in and in the end, the poster ended up in the refuse bin.\ { (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "He makes fun of people whenever there is an opportunity to do so."))\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 3B")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $firstYearCostant)\ } ]\ ]\ (replace: ?c4)[{ (link-replace: "I said I didn't need it... ")[I said I didn't need it, hoping that would settle the argument. I noticed Phillip making a remark to Richard about my strange taste in music, though. Today, the two of them turned up with a tape deck and played Mariah Carey to me during break time. They made a point of it to sing the most cheesy lines out loud to tease me. The whole class was laughing. I told them to stop but they wouldn't listen.\ { (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "He makes fun of people whenever there is an opportunity to do so."))\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 3A")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship -$firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ } ]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I told her I had no idea about current music. Phillip heard me say it. He laughed and repeated it to the whole class. He teased me about it for the rest of the lesson and Richard did the laughing.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip was telling Richard]\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "He makes fun of people whenever there is an opportunity to do so."))\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 3A")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic - $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Phillip>[Phillip]", "|Richard>[Richard]"))\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "Phillip is not very big but looks pretty strong. It's strange how he's not good at sports. I guess it has more to do with his hate for Mr. Joyless than with his skills, though. Then again, I wonder if there is any teacher he likes."))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "Richard is always around Phillip. In fact, I've never seen either of those two on his own. I don't know much about him, as he's not talking much about anything. Even when he's with Phillip he's not the one to do the talking."))\ } ]\ }

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''Today is Friday'', the 10th of February. Visibility is 20 meters. I mustn't forget my gloves again. Today, at breaktime, I went to take a look at the library. I walked through all the different halls until I saw |dp>[(link-goto: "Thomas and David", "Dramatis Personae")] sitting at one of the chess boards. They told me they were playing rocket chess. I asked what that was and Thomas said that every piece that takes another will kill anything on the surrounding eight fields of the table plus itself. They had just finished a game and David offered me a regular chess match if I liked. |c1>[I played a regular match against him... ]\ |c2>[I told him I'd rather watch them play rocket chess once more... ]\ |c3>[I told them I'd come to read... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I played a regular match against him, but he made short work of my defense and I had to give up before the break was over.\ { (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "He's good at chess. I'm not a total beginner myself but he is way stronger. Chess is such a nice game even when you're loosing."))\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "Thomas doesn't seem to be into regular chess very much. He says it's too much effort wasted on a boardgame."))\ (replace: ?dp)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.1")]]\ (set: $tasteForGames = $tasteForGames + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I told him I'd rather watch them play rocket chess once more and they did. It's quite chaotic but on the other hand, you can play several matches within the big break. We had lots of fun. David won.\ { (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "He usually spends his breaktime in the library with Thomas, of all people."))\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "He can get excited about a game he's playing but isn't much upset when he looses."))\ (replace: ?dp)[]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.1")]]\ (set: $tasteForGames = $tasteForGames + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I told them I'd come to read. David told me that wasn't really worth it because the breaks are too short to get anywhere with a book but I said I wanted to check out which one to borrow and went on with that. I could't find anything worth reading, though.\ { (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "He usually spends his time in the library during breaktime and study, but I've never seen him read a book."))\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "He's not into reading at all. Maybe he goes to the library at breaktime to escape the classroom."))\ (replace: ?dp)[]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.1")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForGames = $tasteForGames - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $DavidNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|David>[David]"))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David joined our class two month late, I don't know why. He doesn't talk much, but when he does, it's usually pretty smart. Like he'll sit quietly for twenty minutes in class listening to the discussion about the interpretation of some poem before solving the mystery in three words."))\ ]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Friday'', the 10th of February. Visibility is 20 meters. I mustn't forget my gloves again. There was a snowball-fight in the schoolyard today. Being out front on our team I got hit a few times. I had just formed another snowball, when |dp>[(link-goto: "Christine", "Dramatis Personae")], on the other team, turned and ducked down to make one herself. She was a tempting target. |c1>[I threw my snowball at her... ]\ |c2>[I threw my snowball at someone else after all... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I threw my snowball at her and hit her behind. She was all drenched and didn't look at me for the rest of the day.\ { (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "She was angry at me for hitting her with the snow ball. I wouldn't have done it had I known she can't stand getting hit herself."))\ (replace: ?dp)[Christine]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.1")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I threw my snowball at someone else after all. Michael easily dodged my snowball. While watching stupidly, I got one in the face myself, to my own discomfort and everyone else's great amusement. There must have been a stone in that one since it bruised my cheekbone.\ { (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "I shouldn't target her when we're playing team games. She only takes part in games to not be a spoilsport. I'm sure she doesn't like childish things one bit."))\ (replace: ?dp)[Christine]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $firstYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.1")]]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Monday'', the 8th of May. It was raining the whole day. The leaves are bright green now. |dp>[(link-goto: "Michael", "Dramatis Personae")] took me into a headlock today. He crept up to me as I was rummaging in my bag and pulled me out of my seat by the neck. Apparently, he found this immensely funny. He dragged me around, hooting. I didn't laugh at all. Instead I clung to his arm with one hand to prevent him from choking me. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[I tried to tell the idiot to stop... ]]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I tried to break free... ]]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[I brought my hip under his center of gravity...] ]\ |c4>[(text-style: "strike")[I slapped his groin with my free hand...] ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $confidence < 40)[ (replace: ?c1)[I tried to tell the idiot to stop... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[I tried to tell the idiot to stop, but that made him press even more. I resolved myself to begging for mercy, but that didn't help either. Finally, Anna dropped a comment about how stupidly violent all boys are. Shortly after that he lost interest and let me go.\ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "He's been getting more and more of an arsehole lately. Who is he trying to impress with this?"))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "She seems little interested in what's going on outside of class lately and hasn't been talking to me in ages. On the other hand, she got me out of that situation when Michael ambushed me and no one else said anything."))\ (replace: ?dp)[Michael]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.2")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $firstYearConstant) } ]\ ]\ (elseif: $confidence >= 40)[ (replace: ?c3)[I brought my hip under his center of gravity... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I brought my hip under his center of gravity, lifted him up, grabbed his arm with both hands and slammed him back-first into the nearest table. He wailed in pain and curled up on the ground. A few days later, his parents came over to have a talk with mine. Surprisingly enough, I didn't get scolded after all.\ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "I shouldn't have hurt him so badly. But he started it. Who is he trying to impress with this?"))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Anna hasn't been talking to me for weeks now. I think she started avoiding me after I had that fight with Michael. As far as I know, she's not talking to him either, though."))\ (replace: ?dp)[Michael]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.2")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence < 45)[ (replace: ?c2)[I tried to break free... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I tried to break free, but it was no use. After struggling for a while, I gave up and begged him for mercy. Finally, Christine dropped a comment about how stupidly violent all the boys are. Shortly after he lost interest and let me go.\ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "He's been getting more and more of an arsehole lately. Who is he trying to impress with this?"))\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "She got me out of an embarrissing situation once. I think she'd be able to stop everyone in class with just a wave of her hand if she wanted. She doesn't usually do so, but she did it for me."))\ (replace: ?dp)[Michael]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.2")]]\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $firstYearConstant) } ]\ ]\ (elseif: $confidence >= 45)[ (replace: ?c4)[I slapped his groin with my free hand... ]\ (click-replace: ?c4)[I slapped his groin with my free hand. He immediately let go. "Are you crazy? Those are my balls, man!". I told him to fuck off and surprisingly, he did. But not without a lot of cursing and name-calling.\ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "Why do I have to get into a fight with Michael? We're supposed to be friends. I've known him since kindergarten. Who is he trying to impress with this?"))\ (replace: ?dp)[Michael]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 4.2")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "Michael is great company when you meet him alone. I never noticed in primary school how he can be such a total idiot when he's around others."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Thursday'', the 5th of March. Everything is covered in snow, but it's getting warmer and I guess it'll all be gone in a couple of days. It was floor exercises during PE today, |dp>[(link-goto: "everyone", "Dramatis Personae")] thinks they're girly. And it's true: the only ones who are reasonably good at them are girls. Some girls, anyway. And even those would never admit they like it. Will they one day turn on the heating in the gymnastics hall? We were all shivering in the cold as we queued, talking to pass the time. It got quieter and quieter as I got closer towards the exercise mats. Then it was my turn. |c1>[I tried for a series of cartwheels, as best I could... ]\ |c2>[I did a jump roll and a couple of sommersaults... ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I tried for a series of cartwheels, as best I could. The first one went reasonably well, but by the third one I was off the mats. I hurt my foot quite badly when I crashed into the wall bars. That saved me from having another go. Sitting on the bench for the rest of the lesson, I took the opportunity to watch my classmates. Most of the boys and some of the girls were not making much of an effort, and Mr. Joyless was anouncing a lot of Cs. Christine was the exception. She managed four cartwheels and finished with a roundoff. Not only did she look good doing it, she didn't seem ashamed of it, either.\ { (replace: ?dp)[everyone]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.1")]]\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "She lookes great when she's doing sports. She must be secretly training to become an acrobat."))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I did a jump roll and a couple of somersaults. Mr. Joyless didn't find it very impressive and I heard a few snickers. I had to queue for another go. { (replace: ?dp)[everyone]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "By getting others to jump the queue, I... ")[By getting others to jump the queue, I managed to avoid that second attempt until the lesson was over. It didn't come cheap, though; I now owe the next two weeks worth of pocket money to Phillip and Richard.\ { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.1")]]\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "Caro thinks Mr. Joyless can't stand me. She says it's all right for me to skip PE as much as possible."))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Caro tells me Anna isn't very impressed with how I constantly avoid taking part in PE."))\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 50)[ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "When it was my turn again, I just walked down the line of mats... ")[When it was my turn again, I just walked down the line of mats, waving to my classmates. Of course I got a fail for it, but at least I didn't have to humiliate myself again this way. A few of the guys then followed my example. None of the girls did. Instead I got hateful looks. It became very quiet.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.1")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "Caro pulled me aside after school and told me Christine has been talking to people about me and how I fail to show the most basic respect to teachers."))\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "Without her I would have no idea Christine is slandering me."))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Anna is giving me the quiet treatment. I guess she didn't like my performance at the floor exercises. It's good for her if she enjoys school sports but I'd like her to respect that I don't."))\ } ]\ ]\ ]\ (else:)[ (replace: ?c4)[ (text-style: "strike")[When it was my turn again, I just walked down the line of mats... ]\ ]\ ]\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $PhillipNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Phillip>[Phillip]"))\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "Phillip is not very big but looks pretty strong. It's strange how he's not good at sports. I guess it has more to do with his hate for Mr. Joyless than with his skills, though. Then again, I wonder if there is any teacher he likes."))\ ]\ (if: $RichardNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Richard>[Richard]"))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "Richard is always around Phillip. In fact, I've never seen either of those two on his own. I don't know much about him, as he's not talking much about anything. Even when he's with Phillip he's not the one to do the talking."))\ ]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Tuesday'', the 3rd of October. It rained all day. The storm drains are clogged with leaves and overflowing. Mr. Mooney came into the geography room five minutes late today and announced we would be writing a test. Of course, there was immediate protest but he wouldn't change his mind and gave us the assignment. Something about Mexico city. |dp>[(link-goto: "David", "Dramatis Personae")] and I had been reading about something else entirely in his textbook and it was still open on the desk. |c1>[Fearing this might be considered cheating, I closed the book... ]\ |c2>[Fearing he might consider it cheating if I touched a page, I... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[Fearing this might be considered cheating, I closed the book. But Mr. Mooney had already spotted it. He came over and told me he was going to mark my test as a fail. I told him I had not been reading about Mexico, but he wouldn't listen. Some people behind me cheered as he confiscated my test.\ { (replace: ?dp)[David]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 6A")]]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[Fearing Mooney might consider it cheating if I touched a page, I left it as it was. But as he came strolling down the aisle to look over people's shoulders (why do teachers have to do that, anyway?) he noticed the open book. "What's this? Such brazen cheating! That's a fail for both of you," he went. David and I told him we had been reading about India and, looking at the book he said that in that case, it was alright. But then Michael called out from the back of the class, telling him he shouldn't change his judgement and that we'd broken the rules and should get a fail. I could see Mr. Mooney was unsure what to do with us. Someone started shouting "Fail! Fail! Fail!" Others fell in. I didn't dare turn around and face them as Mooney confiscated both our tests.\ { (replace: ?dp)[David]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 6B")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $secondYearConstant)\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $DavidNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|David>[David]"))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David joined our class two month late, I don't know why. He doesn't talk much, but when he does, it's usually pretty smart. Like he'll sit quietly for twenty minutes in class listening to the discussion about the interpretation of some poem before solving the mystery in three words."))\ ]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Tuesday'', the 3rd of December. It rained all day. There are huge puddles on the pavements. As we waited for the teacher to unlock the art room, today, |dp>[(link-goto: "Thomas", "Dramatis Personae")] told me about the game he has been into lately. It's a war game called "Battle Isle", where you can play against each other, each player making his moves at the same time as the other, all on one screen. He asked me whether I'd like to come over to try it some time. |c1>[I said why not... ]\ |c2>[I told him I wasn't much interested in that... ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I said why not. It sounded like good fun and a way to get around my one-hour games limit. He started telling me all about the different tanks and artillery units in the game. I couldn't quite follow. { (replace: ?dp)[Thomas]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "Nonetheless, I went with the flow... ")[Nonetheless, I went with the flow and asked him for more details on how the game worked. Suddently Michael and Richard barged in on us and wouldn't stop making fun of the blue laser fighter and how it really owned the skies. So we stopped talking about the game.\ { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 11A")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForGames = $tasteForGames + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "He talks about all these computer games he plays, but he's never gotten around to showing them to me.", "Phillip and Richard are pestering him a lot."))\ } ]\ ]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "I told him I'd have to see the game myself... ")[I told him I'd have to see the game myself before I could make any sense of all that, killing the conversation. We're going to meet tomorrow so he can show me the game.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 11B")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForGames = $tasteForGames + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "He plays some games I didn't know before, but he isn't very good at them at all."))\ } ]\ ]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I told him I wasn't much interested in that. He looked a little hurt having been shot down like that and we didn't talk anymore after that.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Thomas]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 11A")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForGames = $tasteForGames - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "He is into computer games. Doesn't he realise it makes him look even more like a loser?"))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Tuesday'', the 3rd of October. It rained all day. The storm drains are clogged with leaves and overflowing. When I went to the loo between lessons, |dp>[(link-goto: "Richard and Phillip", "Dramatis Personae")] joined me. Entering the washroom, we noticed it was empty. Immediately, Richard went from cubicle to cubicle and began pissing onto every roll of toilet paper he could find. He was very proud of himself, because he managed to get them all done before he ran out of piss. Phillip then did the same with every flush button. He managed five. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[I just stood there, like an idiot... ]]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I told them they were disgusting... ]]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $confidence < 40)[ (replace: ?dp)[Richard and Phillip]\ (replace: ?c1)[I just stood there, like an idiot... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[I just stood there, like an idiot until Phillip told me not to just stand there, like an idiot. { (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "Not to be left out, I... ")[Not to be left out, I produced a large puddle on the floor, right were it was impossible to avoid. We were still discussing what we did when a sixth-former came in, looked around, looked at us, said nothing, and left.\ { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 6A")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "He's great for just messing around with. He'll have new ideas everyday for the kind of mischief I'd never think of myself."))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "Richard is a true friend to Phillip, he'll go through thick and thin with him."))\ } ]\ ]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "I braced the door with my foot... ")[I braced the door with my foot, so that no one could disturb us. After Phillip and Richard had left, I took a piss, but I didn't flush. Who knows how often they do this kind of thing.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 6A")]]\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "He is obviously competing for the title of worst arsehole in school. Why is it so difficult to just use a loo as intended?"))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "He must be sick in the head to do what he did on the loo. How can anyone do something like that in a place someone else might need to use?"))\ } ]\ ]\ } ]\ ]\ (elseif: $confidence >= 40)[ (replace: ?c2)[I told them they were disgusting... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I told them they were disgusting, and they said yeah and laughed. Then they grabbed me from both sides and forced my head into one of the loos, before flushing it in my face. When I came to the next lesson drenched, the teacher didn't say anything.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Richard and Phillip]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 6B")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "He is obviously competing for the title of worst arsehole in school. Why is it so difficult to just use a loo as intended?", "Better to stay away from him, he'll jump at any weakness I present to him. I wonder what it was I ever did to him?"))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "He must be sick in the head to do what he did on the loo. How can anyone do something like that in a place someone else might need to use?", "I get the feeling he's basically Phillips henchman, and nothing more."))\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $PhillipNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Phillip>[Phillip]", "|Richard>[Richard]"))\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "Phillip is not very big but looks pretty strong. It's strange how he's not good at sports. I guess it has more to do with his hate for Mr. Joyless than with his skills, though. Then again, I wonder if there is any teacher he likes."))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "Richard is always around Phillip. In fact, I've never seen either of those two on his own. I don't know much about him, as he's not talking much about anything. Even when he's with Phillip he's not the one to do the talking."))\ ]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Wednesday'', the 20th of December. It's freezing outside. We'll be able to go skating on the lake before Christmas this year if it goes on. I was just putting on my jacket to go home from school today, when |dp>[(link-goto: "Phillip", "Dramatis Personae")] snatched one of my gloves from the desk and, with the most satisfied expression, spat into it, before giving it back to me. |c1>[When I got home, I told Mama about it... ]\ |c2>[When I got home, I told Mama I had lost my glove... ]\ |c3>[I decided not to wear gloves any more... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[When I got home, I told Mama about it. She was furious and it took me a lot of effort to stop her from calling his parents. She told me if I ever did something like that myself, she'd send me to therapy.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 7B")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $secondYearConstant)\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[When I got home, I told Mama I had lost my glove, which got me scolded, it not being the first time and such. Now I'll have to use my own pocket money to buy new ones.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 7A")]]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I decided not to wear gloves any more. This way, there is not going to be a big hassle about it. I'll throw away the gloves tomorrow.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 7A")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $secondYearConstant)\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $PhillipNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Phillip>[Phillip]"))\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "Phillip is not very big but looks pretty strong. It's strange how he's not good at sports. I guess it has more to do with his hate for Mr. Joyless than with his skills, though. Then again, I wonder if there is any teacher he likes."))\ ]\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "The guy is disgusting. You really can't turn your back to him. I guess I'll have to carry all my stuff around with me from now on."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Wednesday'', the 20th of December. It's freezing outside. We'll be able to go skating on the lake before Christmas this year if it goes on. I went to the end-of-year-concert the other night. One after the other the many choirs, bigbands and orchestras of the school performed their acts while the snow was quietly falling outside in the darkness. |c1>[I liked the junior choir and orchestra best... ]\ |c2>[I liked the junior band best... ]\ |c3>[I liked the senior orchestra best... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I liked the junior choir and orchestra best. Anna sang in the choir and David played the trombone. They performed a few great Christmas pieces. When the "Gloria in excelsis deo" ended, I noticed I had gotten completely lost in the music.\ { (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 7B")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David plays the trombone in the junior orchestra. They often practice together with the choir."))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Anna sings solo parts in the junior choir. She's really good! It's even better when they're accompanied by the orchestra."))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I liked the junior band best. They played a few well-known pop and rock songs. Some were more on the catchy side than others but the best came when Christine sang the Velvet Underground's "Femme fatale". She held the whole audience in her palm with her clear voice.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 7A")]]\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "Christine has a great singing voice. And she looked so good in the stage lighting."))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I liked the senior orchestra best. They played Rachmaninov's "The Isle of the Dead", which, for some reason, reminded me of a painting I had seen in the art gallery, I think it was by Adolph Menzel. Or was it Caspar David Friedrich or Arnold Böcklin, maybe?\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 7B")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForGames = $tasteForGames - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondyearConstant)\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $DavidNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|David>[David]"))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David joined our class two month late, I don't know why. He doesn't talk much, but when he does, it's usually pretty smart. Like he'll sit quietly for twenty minutes in class listening to the discussion about the interpretation of some poem before solving the mystery in three words."))\ ]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Thursday'', the 5th of March Rain all day. But it's getting greener now so I hope we'll start going to the park for warm up soon. Today, after hockey training, when we were in the changing room, |dp>[(link-goto: "Sebastian", "Dramatis Personae")] tried another one of these jokes he learns from his older brother. He whipped some ice of the blade of his skate and threw it at OT as he got out of the showers. "Yowsers!" he called out as it hit him on his bare chest, as we all laughed with him and Sebastian. After that, everyone to exit the shower was subjected to a similar bombardment. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[I got the feeling the fun wore off pretty soon, but... ]]\ |c2>[I didn't want to get cold and wet, so I... ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $confidence >= 45)[ (replace: ?c1)[I got the feeling the fun wore off pretty soon, but... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[I got the feeling the fun wore off pretty soon, but I wanted to face their treatment like a man. Not everyone did. Some of the guys didn't even take a shower and just left as they were. I hope this won't become a regular feature of training.\ { (replace: ?dp)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.1")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $SebastianNotes to $SebastianNotes + (a: "He's very loud and rowdy almost all the time, even when you'd really like him to shut up and leave you in peace."))\ } ]\ ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[ I didn't want to get cold and wet, so I decided to wait until most people had left before I took a shower. Sebastian must have noticed me dawdling. He took his time. In fact, he didn't even bother taking off his protectors. { (replace: ?dp)[]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "Since I wanted to get out before eleven... ")[Since I wanted to get out before eleven, the subway trains not running very often after that and all, I made for the shower eventually. Of course, that was what he had been saving his ice-pack for. Why can't he just let people change in peace?\ { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.1")]]\ } ]\ ]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "I was not going to be beaten at this game... ")[I was not going to be beaten at this game. Eventually, there were only four of us left and Sebastian had taken his shower. Of course, no one bothered //him//. When he'd left, the rest of us made for the shower. As we turned our backs to the door, Sebastian came back in and unloaded a plastic bag full off ice on us. He must have scraped it off the surface just for this. Why can't he just let people change in peace?\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.1")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ (set: $SebastianNotes to $SebastianNotes + (a: "He's very loud and rowdy almost all the time, even when you'd really like him to shut up and leave you in peace."))\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Sebastian>[Sebastian]"))\ (set: $SebastianNotes to $SebastianNotes + (a: "Sebastian is the captain of our team. He and his brother (who's the captain of the senior team) have both been playing ice hockey since they were small. No wonder he's really fast and strong."))\ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|OT>[OT]"))\ (set: $OTNotes to $OTNotes + (a: "I have no Idea what his real name is, everyone just calls him OT. He's reasonably fast on skates but I think he sees defense work as beneath him. That might still be OK if he ever managed to score, but he rarely ever does."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Friday'', the 12th of July. A storm is raging outside. The sea is as grey as the sky. I can barely make out the horizon. This is the last day of the school trip. We had some free time to spend this afternoon. I had brought the red kite I got for Christmas last year and I wanted to try it in the stronger winds on the island. As I made my way down to the beach, I noticed |dp>[(link-goto: "Phillip, Michael and Richard", "Dramatis Personae")]. They were heading for the woods and hadn't noticed me. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[I had gone out to fly the kite. I saw no reason to change my plan... ]]\ |c2>[I decided to follow the trio... ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $confidence >= 50)[ (replace: ?c1)[I had gone out to fly the kite. I saw no reason to change my plan... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[I had gone out to fly the kite. I saw no reason to change my plan and headed for the dunes. The winds were strong and preventing my kite from crashing into the sea wasn't easy. In the end, it crashed on the beach and broke one of its reinforcement bars. I rolled it up and put it back in its sheath. It started raining halfway back to the dorms.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip, Michael and Richard]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 3")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I decided to follow the trio. Sneaking after them through the underbrush, I soon realised it would be a good idea to leave the brightly-coloured, unwieldy kite behind unless I wanted them to notice me. { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip, Michael and Richard]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "I left the kite behind in some underbrush... ")[I left the kite behind in some underbrush. I then went after the guys but couldn't find them anymore in the forest even though I spend half an hour sneaking from tree to tree, looking for them. In the end I just went back to get my kite. As I made for the beach, it started to rain.\ { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 3")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $secondYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "I abandoned my efforts to hide from them... ")[I abandoned my efforts to hide from them. I caught up with them just as Phillip was getting ready to light the cigar they had somehow managed to smuggle in. They invited me to join in, but I had to cough when I tried inhaling the smoke. It all felt awkward, so I took the opportunity to leave when it started to rain.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 3")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "I know he is smoking in secret. That's not so bold after all."))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "He must have started smoking a while ago but until now he has managed to hide it quite well."))\ (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "He's rolling his own cigarettes together with Phillip and Richard."))\ } ]\ ]\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $PhillipNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Phillip>[Phillip]"))\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "Phillip is not very big but looks pretty strong. It's strange how he's not good at sports. I guess it has more to do with his hate for Mr. Joyless than with his skills, though. Then again, I wonder if there is any teacher he likes."))\ ]\ (if: $RichardNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Richard>[Richard]"))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "Richard is always around Phillip. In fact, I've never seen either of those two on his own. I don't know much about him, as he's not talking much about anything. Even when he's with Phillip he's not the one to do the talking."))\ ]\ (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "Michael has been hanging out with Phillip and Richard a lot. They even shared a room on the school trip. I'm pretty sure he's not interested in them in the least. Strange."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Monday'', the 8th of July. The sky is blue, the sun is shining, the air salty, like it should be. Today is the first day of the school trip. We took the train that travels over the long dam. When you look out of the window, all you see is water, left and right. I wonder what happens when there is a storm out on the sea. I bet they'll cancel the trains at some point. When we got out at the island terminus we had to walk on the platform along the train to the exit. In front of me were four girls strolling along side by side. As she tried to keep up with the others, |dp>[(link-goto: "Caro", "Dramatis Personae")] got too close to the edge of the platform and her trolley case dropped right under the waiting train. The girls stopped, looking helpless. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[I told Caro she'd better go get a teacher... ]]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I told the girls to watch my luggage and went to get a station attendant...] ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[I told Caro to just climb down onto the tracks and get her suitcase...] ]\ |c4>[(text-style: "strike")[I quickly climbed down onto the tracks to get the suitcase...] ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $confidence < 40)[ (replace: ?c1)[I told Caro she'd better go get a teacher... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[I told Caro she'd better go get a teacher. By the time she came back with Ms. Cloels and the station attendant, the other girls had already left. The man climbed under the train and got the suitcase out. Ms. Cloels scolded Caro and me for being so careless.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Caro]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.2")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "She thinks we should just have climbed under the train ourselfes to get the suitcase out. After all, that's all the station attendant did."))\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 45)[ (replace: ?c2)[I told the girls to watch my luggage and went to get a station attendant... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I told the girls to watch my luggage and went to get a station attendant. By the time I was back with him, Caro was standing beside the train alone. The man climbed down onto the track and got her suitcase out. We thanked him and ran with our luggage to catch up with the others. The other girls had already tattled on Caro and Ms. Cloels scolded her for making eveyone else wait.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Caro]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.2")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $infatiation = $infatuation - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "Caro was really upset when she was scolded by Ms. Cloels for dropping her suitcase under the train. I wonder why? It's not as though Ms. Cloels wouldn't have forgotten the whole thing a couple of days later."))\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence < 45)[ (replace: ?c3)[I told Caro to just climb down onto the tracks and get her suitcase... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I told Caro to just climb down onto the tracks to get the suitcase. That's what I'd have done had it been my stuff. But she she was afraid the train would start moving while she was down on the tracks. Anna came by and said she'd get the station attendant to help. He turned up soon enough, climbed down and got the suitcase out. The other girls called Caro a clumsy coward for the rest of the day.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Caro]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.2")]](set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "Why couldn't she just get her suitcase out. Nothing would have happened to her. Really now, since when did all the girls become such sissies? All but Christine, that is."))\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 50)[ (replace: ?c4)[I quickly climbed down onto the tracks to get the suitcase... ]\ (click-replace: ?c4)[I quickly climbed down onto the tracks to get the suitcase. The girls were all going don't it's not allowed and oh so dangerous but what could happen? This was the terminus and the train would surely get cleaned before it went on its return trip. It took all of two minutes and I didn't even get all that dirty. For all their worrying none of them lent me a hand when I climbed back up.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Caro]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 8.2")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation - $secondYearConstant)\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "I don't know why Caro didn't even thank me when I rescued her suitcase from certain destruction. Maybe it was because of the other girls around."))\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "Caro seems to have difficulties keeping up with the other girls. Like how they're all getting into music now and she is still into horses."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Saturday'', the 5th of October. This evening, the sunset painted the clouds in so many different colours. Now it's dark and the wind is blowing raindrops against my window. We played the team from the little town to the southeast today, losing as always. Their stadium is small and they only have two changing rooms. One for them, one for us. It was decided |dp>[(link-goto: "Kathrin", "Dramatis Personae")] should use the shower first this time around. While we were waiting for her to finish, Sebastian started banging on the door to the showers, going "Hurry up, or we'll come in." and "We can seeeee you...", which got him some dirty laughter from the others. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[Everyone joined into the fun. We must have scared her pretty good... ]]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[This way I wasn't going to get home any time soon, I thought... ]] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $confidence < 45 or $friendship < 45)[ (replace: ?c1)[Everyone joined into the fun. We must have scared her pretty good... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[Everyone joined into the fun. We must have scared her pretty good. She wouldn't leave the shower anymore. In the end, the coach had to persuade her to come out and she didn't even take the time to pack her equipment before she fled.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Kathrin]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 10B")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $KathrinInTeam = false)\ (set: $KathrinNotes to $KathrinNotes + (a: "Kathrin has quit the ice hockey team. That's probably for the best. She's better off out if she can't stand the banter."))\ } ]\ ]\ (else:)[ (replace: ?c2)[This way I wasn't going to get home any time soon... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[This way I wasn't going to get home any time soon, I thought. But I couldn't have been more mistaken. Kathrin was out of the shower in no time, packed her stuff and left without another word.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Kathrin]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 10A")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForGames = $tasteForGames + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $KathrinNotes to $KathrinNotes + (a: "Kathrin is not trying to hide that she hates Sebastian. Luckly she's my winger and not his. I don't think those two would ever be able to give up a puck to the other."))\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $SebastianNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Sebastian>[Sebastian]"))\ (set: $SebastianNotes to $SebastianNotes + (a: "Sebastian is the captain of our team. He and his brother (who's the captain of the senior team) have both been playing ice hockey since they were small. No wonder he's really fast and strong."))\ ]\ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Kathrin>[Kathrin]"))\ (set: $KathrinNotes to $KathrinNotes + (a: "She's the last girl on our team. All the others have dropped out a year or two ago. Some of them weren't half bad at it and they seemed to have fun. I don't understand why they'd quit. Anyway, Kathrin is the right winger on my line."))\ } ]\ }

(font: "Times New Roman")[(align: "<==")[##''Fifth grade, ten years old'']] --- { (if: $quoteline > 0)[//This is a musician's face, I told myself. This is the child Mozart. This is a life full of beautiful promise. Little princes in legends are not different from this. Protected, sheltered, cultivated, what could not this child become? When by mutation a new rose is born in a garden, all gardeners rejoice. They isolate the rose, tend it, foster it. But there is no gardener for men. This little Mozart will be shaped like the rest by the common stamping machine.// (align: "==>")[- Antoine de Saint-Exupery] --- (align: "=><=")[[[Stamp a little Mozart->Entry 1]]] ] (elseif: $quoteline < 0)[//Circumstances define us; they force us onto one road or another, and then they punish us for it.// (align: "==>")[- Ivan Turgenev] --- (align: "=><=")[[[Get forced onto one road or another->Entry 1]]] ] (else:)[//Young men of the same age are grouped together as a class and then, on the fulfillment of certain rites involving severe and often cruel ordeals, are promoted to the next class. It may happen that some of them perish during these ordeals, but that is the exception.// (align: "==>")[- Elias Canetti, //Crowds and Power//] --- (align: "=><=")[[[Advance a class->Entry 1]]] ] (save-game:"Slot A") }

''Today is Tuesday'', the 3rd of December. It rained all day. There are huge puddles on the pavements. We had Latin class today. Of course Mr. Sinster had to call |dp>[(link-goto: "Thomas", "Dramatis Personae")] to the blackboard. Latin is not exactly his strong subject. I wonder what is? Anyway, he told him to write the translation on the board. I'm sure Sinster knew he wouldn't be able to get a word of it right. I could see Thomas' hand with the chalk was shaking. Everyone else stayed quiet, heads in their books. |c1>[I stayed quiet, head in my book... ]\ |c2>[I raised my arm, although I didn't know the answer... ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I stayed quiet, head in my book. After Thomas had written down a few words, at last David raised his hand. He would have been able to give the correct translation, I am sure. But Mr. Sinster ignored him. Instead he took his time mocking Thomas' more and more desperate attempts at answering the question. { (replace: ?dp)[Thomas]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "Unable to help Thomas , I stayed quiet... ")[Unable to help Thomas, I stayed quiet. His ordeal went on for a little longer before he was allowed back to his seat after having gotten a fail. Sinster went on about how doing your homework pays off in the long term. { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 11A")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "Thomas has to endure a lot from Mr. Sinster because he's bad at Latin."))\ } ]\ ]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (if: $confidence >= 50 and $friendship >= 50)[ (link-replace: "I couldn't bear this any more... ")[I couldn't bear this any more so I casually but audibly told David to take down his arm as it was obvious Sinster was not going to let himself get distracted from his little sadistic pleasure. Mr. Sinster told Thomas he failed and to go back to his seat. Then he told me he wanted a word with me in the teachers' room after school . I told him I didn't think there was any more need for talk but if he wanted to, he could discuss whatever it was he needed to talk about right here. He got angry and said there wasn't any time now. I didn't go to him after school.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 11B")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $hatedBySinster = true)\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "I managed to get Thomas out of a tight spot with Mr. Sinster. But now I'm on the man's blacklist myself."))\ } ]\ ]\ (else:)[(text-style: "strike")[I couldn't bear this any more... ]\ ]\ ]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I raised my arm, although I didn't know the answer. Of course, Mr. Sinster immediately asked me whether I'd like to contribute to the translation. { (replace: ?dp)[Thomas]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "I suggested he start with the verb... ")[I suggested he start with the verb at the end of the first full sentence, which was 'fugerunt' so obviously people were running from something. Sinster remarked that as I had said, this was obvious and wouldn't score me any marks in an exam. If I wasn't going to provide a translation I shouldn't raise my hand again. David raised his hand to help but he ignored him so Thomas had to endure some more mocking before he was sent back to his seat with a fail. Sinster went on about how doing your homework pays off in the long term.\ { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 11B")]]\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David is pretty good at Latin but Sinster knows it. He won't ever give David the chance to show it."))\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "Thomas has to endure a lot from Mr. Sinster because he's bad at Latin."))\ } ]\ ]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "I told him that no, I wouldn't... ")[I told him that no, I wouldn't, because I didn't know the translation but that it was obvious Thomas didn't either and that he should stop tormenting him. Sinster went on that he wasn't tormenting anyone, that it was Thomas' responsibility to learn his vocabulary and that someone who wasn't any better at it himself should bloody well shut up. "Exactly, shut up, man." Richard called into the room. So I didn't say any more and watched Thomas get his fail.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 11A")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $hatedBySinster = true)\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "I wasn't able to help Thomas when Mr. Sinster was after him, but now I'm on his blacklist as well."))\ } ]\ ]\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $DavidNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|David>[David]"))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David joined our class two month late, I don't know why. He doesn't talk much, but when he does, it's usually pretty smart. Like he'll sit quietly for twenty minutes in class listening to the discussion about the interpretation of some poem before solving the mystery in three words."))\ ]\ } ]\ }

(set: $age = 12)\ (font: "Times New Roman")[(align: "<==")[##''Seventh grade, twelve years old'']] --- (if: $quoteline > 0)[{//There are limits to what a mule or an ass will stand; but Man will suffer himself to be degraded until his vileness becomes so loathsome to his oppressors that they themselves are forced to reform it.// (align: "==>")[― George Bernard Shaw] --- (align: "=><=")[[[Test the limits of the human animal->Entry 9]]]}]\ (elseif: $quoteline < 0)[{ //The crowd which the seeker after fame envisages consists of shadows, that is, of creatures who do not even have to be alive so long as they are capable of one thing, which is to repeat his name. He wants them to repeat it often, and to repeat it in front of others, so that as many as possible may hear it and learn how to say it themselves.// (align: "==>")[- Elias Canetti, //Crowds and Power//] --- (align: "=><=")[[[Repeat the name->Entry 9]]]}]\ (else:)[{ //It was not that one did not want to possess the right qualities or feel the correct emotions, but that one could not. The good and the possible never seemed to coincide.// (align: "==>")[- George Orwell, //Such, such were the Joys//] --- (align: "=><=")[[[Fail to feel the correct emotions->Entry 9]]]}]\ (save-game:"Slot A")

(set: $age = 11)\ (font: "Times New Roman")[(align: "<==")[##''Sixth grade, eleven years old'']] --- (if: $quoteline > 0)[{//I lived in a world of boys, gregarious animals questioning nothing, accepting the law of the stronger and avenging their own humiliations by passing them down to someone smaller.// (align: "==>")[- George Orwell, //Such, such were the Joys//] --- (align: "=><=")[{ (if: $friendship >= 45)[{ (link-goto: "Accept the law of the stronger", "Entry 5B") }]\ (else:)[{ (link-goto: "Accept the law of the stronger", "Entry 5A") }]\ }]\ }]\ (elseif: $quoteline < 0)[{//Perhaps it is only human nature to inflict suffering on anything that will endure suffering, whether by reason of its genuine humility, or indifference, or sheer helplessness.// (align: "==>")[- Honoré de Balzac, //Père Goriot//] --- (align: "=><=")[{ (if: $friendship >= 45)[{ (link-goto: "Endure suffering", "Entry 5B") }]\ (else:)[{ (link-goto: "Endure suffering", "Entry 5A") }]\ }]\ }]\ (else:)[{//Schoolboys are a merciless race, individually they are angels, but together, especially in schools, they are often merciless.// (align: "==>")[― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, //The Brothers Karamazov//] --- (align: "=><=")[{ (if: $friendship >= 45)[{ (link-goto: "Bring angels together", "Entry 5B") }]\ (else:)[{ (link-goto: "Bring angels together", "Entry 5A") }]\ }]\ }]\ (save-game:"Slot A")

(set: $age = 12)\ (font: "Times New Roman")[(align: "<==")[##''Eighths grade, thirteen years old'']] --- (if: $quoteline > 0)[{//It is important for the crowd that the executioner should show it the severed head. This, and this alone, is the moment of discharge. Whoever the head has belonged to, it is degraded now; during the short moment it stares at the crowd it becomes a head like all other heads. Though it may have started on the shoulders of a king, it is made level with them by this lightning process of public degradation. The crowd here consists of staring heads and it attains its feeling of equality during the moment that the head stares back at it.// (align: "==>")[- Elias Canetti, //Crowds and Power//] --- (align: "=><=")[{ (if: $confidence >= 50 and $tasteForBooks >= 35 and $friendship >= 50)[{ (link-goto: "Attain a feeling of equality", "Entry 13B") }]\ (else:)[{ (link-goto: "Attain a feeing of equality", "Entry 13A") }]\ }]\ }]\ (elseif: $quoteline < 0)[{ //When men begin to feel cramped in their geographical, social and mental surroundings, there is the risk of falling for a simple solution: the one that denies the human quality to some of the species.// (align: "==>")[- Claude Levi-Strauss, //Sad Tropics//] --- (align: "=><=")[{ (if: $confidence >= 50 and $tasteForBooks >= 35 and $friendship >= 50)[{ (link-goto: "Feel socialy and mentaly cramped", "Entry 13B") }]\ (else:)[{ (link-goto: "Feel socialy and mentaly cramped", "Entry 13A") }]\ }]\ }]\ (else:)[{ //The real executioner is the crowd gathered round the scaffold. It approves the spectacle and, with passionate excitement, gathers from far and near to watch it from beginning to end. It wants it to happen and hates being cheated of its victim.// (align: "==>")[- Elias Canetti, //Crowds and Power//] --- (align: "=><=")[{ (if: $confidence >= 50 and $tasteForBooks >= 35 and $friendship >= 50)[{ (link-goto: "Watch from beginning to end", "Entry 13B") }]\ (else:)[{ (link-goto: "Watch from beginning to end", "Entry 13A") }]\ }] }]\ { (save-game:"Slot A") (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $DavidNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|David>[David]"))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David joined our class two month late, I don't know why. He doesn't talk much, but when he does, it's usually pretty smart. Like he'll sit quietly for twenty minutes in class listening to the discussion about the interpretation of some poem before solving the mystery in three words."))\ ]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Saturday'', the 25th of October. A storm is raging in the darkness ouside my window. We were walking back from the gym after PE yesterday and had to cross the square with the bike stands. There were five blockheads from the comprehensive accross the road standing around. One look at them told me they had had a bad day. The smallest of them came straight at me, walking pretty fast. It was just |dp>[(link-goto: "David, Thomas", "Dramatis Personae")] and me still outside the school gate. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[I continued to face him while I walked backwards towards our school gate...] ]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I turned and ran for the school gate...] ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[I stopped to face him...] ]\ |c4>[]\ |c5>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $confidence >= 40 and $friendship >= 40)[ (replace: ?c1)[I continued to face him while I walked backwards towards our school gate... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[I continued to face him while I walked backwards towards our school gate. The dwarf came at me hollering swearwords and immediately tried to punch me in the face. Luckily I dodged his puches walking backwards. So he resorted to spitting. I saw out of the corner of my eye that his friends were trying to cut us off from the school gate. { (replace: ?dp)[David, Thomas]\ (replace: ?c4)[I told David and Thomas to run... ]\ (click-replace: ?c4)[I told David and Thomas to run and they didn't hesitate one moment. I got to the door myself but didn't have time to close it before the idiots caught up with me and gave me a good hiding right in front of our janitor's office. He didn't even bother to say a word. Neither did any of the others that came by during the three minutes or so the comp nutters were going at it before they left. The doctor says the blue eye will be gone in a few days but it'll take at least three weeks for the broken ribs to heal. That means no training camp for me this year.\ { (set: $friendship = $friendship + $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c5)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 14A")]]\ } ]\ (replace: ?c5)[I made a sudden break for the door... ]\ (click-replace: ?c5)[I made a sudden break for the door and got away unhurt. So did Thomas, but David didn't make it through the door in time and the comp nutters took out their frustration on him. The doctor says the blue eyes will be gone in in a few days but he'll have to wear a corset until his ribs are fixed. { (set: $friendship = $friendship - $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 14B")]]\ (set: $DavidNotes = $DavidNotes + (a: "David got beaten up by thugs from the comprehensive. He's not all that unhappy about it because now he'll be excused from PE for a while. Still, I feel he hadn't quite grasped the situation, and I should have told him to run."))\ } ]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence < 40 or $friendship < 40)[ (replace: ?c2)[I turned and ran for the school gate... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I turned and ran for the school gate and so did David and Thomas. We made it in time before the idiots caught up with us and held the door shut until after we couldn't hear their taunts anymore. These guys are crazy, who knows what they'd have done to us.\ { (replace: ?dp)[David, Thomas]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 14B")]]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 55)[ (replace: ?c3)[I stopped to face him... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I stopped to face him but he immediatley lunged for my stomach with his fist. I grabbed it and slapped him on the cheek. But then his cronies had caught up with him and David and Thomas were nowhere to be seen. One of them held my arms while the others took turns taking out their frustration on me. The doctor says my nose can be fixed in two weeks but it'll take at least three for the broken ribs to heal. That means no training camp for me this year. I think I should start carrying a switchblade.\ { (replace: ?dp)[David, Thomas]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c5)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 14A")]]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ } ]\ ]\ }

''Today is Friday'', the 1st of September. Today was probably the last nice day of summer. The forecast says it'll get cooler from tomorrow onwards. { (if: $AnnaStory is true)[ (if: $goodEnding is true)[ I went swimming today with Thomas. We took a ball with us and spent the whole afternoon in the water. On the way back home, he told me he won't be going to our school anymore from next term onwards. His grades aren't improving and so the principal thinks he'll be better of going to the comprehensive. (if: $boardingSchool is true)[ I told him I wasn't coming back either. He said we should make sure to meet in the holidays and ask Anna and David to come along. He's right, of course, we should. But somehow I don't see it coming. ]\ (else:)[ I told him we'd still be able to meet and that we should ask Anna and David to come along next time. He just said thank you. I didn't dwell on it. He's not totally stupid. He'll want to make a fresh start at the comp. I wished him luck. ]\ ]\ (elseif: $AnnaInSchool is true)[ They found Caro today. They say she had been floating in the lake for a few days, that it was most likely an accident, that she swam out too far and didn't make it back. I know Caro; she knows her limit, so I guess she reached it. I think I know who ratted out Christine to the teachers now. (if: $boardingSchool is true)[ I try not to think about it. I feel better when I imagine starting at the boarding school next week. I don't think I could stomach any of my classmates. ]\ (else:)[ I think a bunch of people from our class will be able to put two and two together. None of them will speak up about it, though. I for one won't, that's for sure. ]\ ]\ (else:)[ They found Anna today. They say she had been floating in the lake for a few days, that it was most likely an accident, that she swam out too far and didn't make it back. I know Anna; she knows her limit, so I guess she reached it. Her parents haven't said anything. I doubt she told them. (if: $boardingSchool is true)[ I try not to think about it. I feel better when I imagine starting at the boarding school next week. I don't think I could stomach any of my classmates. ]\ (else:)[ I don't think any of the others will talk. I for one won't, that's for sure. ]\ ]\ ]\ (else:)[ (if: $goodEnding is true)[ I went swimming today with Thomas. We took a ball with us and spent the whole afternoon in the water. On the way back home, he told me he won't be going to our school anymore from next term onwards. His grades aren't improving and so the principal thinks he'll be better of going to the comprehensive. (if: $boardingSchool is true)[ I told him I wasn't coming back either. He said we should make sure to meet in the holidays and ask Anna and David to come along. He's right, of course, we should. But somehow I don't see it coming. ]\ (else:)[ I told him we'd still be able to meet and that we should ask Anna and David to come along next time. He just said thank you. I didn't dwell on it. He's not totally stupid. He'll want to make a fresh start at the comp. I wished him luck. ]\ ]\ (else:)[ I went swimming on my own again today. I've been going to the lake every day for the last week, but I haven't met any of the others. Today, I waited until after it got dark. (if: $boardingSchool is true)[ I guess I'll have to take my chance to make a fresh start next term. At least I'll be out of reach for all the idiots around here. ]\ (else:)[ I think it'll be a long time before I can make friends with people again. ]\ ]\ ]\ } I won't be writing in this diary any more. --- { (set: $endScore = $confidence + $friendship - $infatuation) (if: $endScore <= 20)[ //I had absolutely lost all sense of personal dignity, and could not tear myself away from the spectacle of my own misery.// (align: "==>")[- Ivan Turgenev, //Diary of a superfluous man//] ] (elseif: $endScore <= 40)[ //Failure, failure, failure – failure behind me, failure ahead of me – that was by far the deepest conviction that I carried away.// (align: "==>")[- George Orwell, //Such, such were the joys//] ] (elseif: $endScore <= 60)[ //That was the pattern of school life – a continuous triumph of the strong over the weak. Vitrue consisted in winning: it consisted in being bigger, stronger, handsomer, richer, more popular, more elegant, more unscrouplous than other people – in dominating them, bullying them, making them suffer pain, making them look foolish, getting the better of them in every way. Life was hierachical and whatever happened was right. There were the strong, who deserved to win and always did win, and there were the weak, who deserved to lose and always did lose, everlastingly.// (align: "==>")[- George Orwell, //Such, such were the joys//] ] (elseif: $endScore <= 80)[ //There is a sweetness in beeing the sole source, the autocratic and irresponsible cause of the greatest joy and profoundest pain to another.// (align: "==>")[- Ivan Turgenev] ] (elseif: $endScore <= 100)[ //At the time I could not see beyond the moral dilemma that is presented to the weak in a world governed by the strong: Break the rules, or perish. I did not see that in that case the weak have the right to make a different set of rules for themselves; because, even if such an idea had occured to me, there was no one in my environment who could have confirmed me in it.// (align: "==>")[- George Orwell, //Such, such were the joys//] ] (else:)[ //Thank goodness you're a failure- it's why I so distinguish you! Anything else to-day is too hideous. Look about you - look at the successes. Would you be one, on your honour?// (align: "==>")[- Henry James, //The Ambassadors//] ] } (align: "=><=")[[[That sums it up pretty well.->Start]] [[Actually it went very differently for me, really!->Restart]]]\ { (if: $quoteline > 0)[(set: $quoteline = -1)]\ (elseif: $quoteline < 0)[(set: $quoteline = 0)]\ (else:)[(set: $quoteline = 1)]\ (set: $infatuation = 45 - (floor: (abs: $quoteline) * (random: 0,0)))\ (set: $friendship = 45 - (floor: (abs: $quoteline) * (random: 0,0)))\ (set: $confidence = 45 - (floor: (abs: $quoteline) * (random: 0,0)))\ (set: $tasteForBooks = 35 - (floor: (abs: $quoteline) * (random: 0,0)))\ (set: $tasteForMusic = 25)\ (set: $tasteForGames = 20 + (floor: (abs: $quoteline) * (random: 0,0)))\ (set: $age = 10)\ (set: $KathrinInTeam = true)\ (set: $hatedBySinster = false)\ (set: $ThomasInSchool = true)\ (set: $AnnaInSchool = true)\ (set: $goodEnding = true)\ (set: $i = 0)\ (set: $j = 0)\ (set: $k = 0)\ (set: $visitedPassages to (array:))\ (set: $dramatisPersonae to (array:))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to (array:))\ (set: $CaroNotes to (array:))\ (set: $MichaelNotes to (array:))\ (set: $ThomasNotes to (array:))\ (set: $ChristineNotes to (array:))\ (set: $PhillipNotes to (array:))\ (set: $RichardNotes to (array:))\ (set: $DavidNotes to (array:))\ (set: $SisNotes to (array:))\ (set: $SebastianNotes to (array:))\ (set: $KathrinNotes to (array:))\ (set: $OTNotes to (array:))\ }

''Today is Sunday'', the 6th of August. The sun was burning down on us all day. My |dp>[(link-goto: "sister", "Dramatis Personae")]'s whining couldn't change Mama's mind and so we climbed the mountain after all today. On our way up, we stopped to have a picnick at a point where the footpath crossed a little stream. There were some other boys and girls around, just a few years older than me. They were all in their swimsuits and trunks, playing Indiaca in the shallow water. |c1>[They must have been part of a //colonie de vacances...// ]\ |c2>[They must have been hiking on their own... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[They must have been part of a //colonie de vacances//, why else would they have been playing in a mixed group? There was no adult around and they seemed to be having fun. Maybe their watchdog had to drive someone to the doctor, or something.\ { (replace: ?dp)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 2")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[They must have been hiking on their own. They had set up their tents a few yards down the stream. I watched them for a while before I realised I was staring. They looked so genuinely happy playing together.\ { (replace: ?dp)[]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 2")]]\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $firstYearConstant)\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Sis>[Sis]"))\ (set: $SisNotes to $SisNotes + (a: "I'd be mighty stupid if I kept notes on my sister in here. What if she found this?"))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Monday'', the 24th of February. Still no snow. The ice on the lake is perfect, though. We had PE in the big gym today. I had almost finished changing into my sports kit when |dp>[(link-goto: "Phillip and Richard", "Dramatis Personae")] came up to me and Phillip didn't even say a word before he slapped me in the face. There were about half of the other guys still in the changing room. I had one arm half into my sleeve and couldn't fight back even if I wanted. |c1>[I covered my face as well as I could with my free hand... ]\ |c2>[I called out for help... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I covered my face as well as I could with my free hand. So Phillip grabbed it while Richard proceeded to slap me up. I took about 20 without flinching before I started to tear up. This was what they had been waiting for so they left me alone. I went to the bathroom to rinse my face but my eyes were still red and my cheeks swollen when I came five minutes late for the lesson. Mr. Joyless greeted me with three extra laps.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip and Richard]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.1")]]\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "This guy won't ever have a fair fight with anyone, I know that much."))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "I get the impression Richard leaves the talking to Phillip because he's mostly incapable of doing it himself."))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I called out for help, but nobody helped me. I think I saw David quietly slip away out of the corner of my eye. Phillip and Richard took turns slapping me. I held out for 20 or so before tears came to my eyes. This was what they had been waiting for so they left me alone. I went to the bathroom to rinse my face but my eyes were still red and my cheeks swollen when I came five minutes late for the lesson. Mr. Joyless greeted me with three extra laps.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip and Richard]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.1")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "This guy won't ever have a fair fight with anyone, I know that much."))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "I get the impression Richard leaves the talking to Phillip because he's mostly incapable of doing it himself."))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David didn't help me when Phillip and Richard slapped me up in the changing room. He saw what was happening, he heard me call out for help and yet he just left. That was not cool."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Monday'', the 24th of February. Still no snow. The ice on the lake is perfect, though. Still thinking about the game yesterday. For once the other team couldn't stomp |dp>[(link-goto: "us", "Dramatis Personae")] into the ground. During second period their left winger whacked the puck clumsily into our defensive zone and it wobbled behind the goal. I went for it at speed, one of them right behind me. The moron followed me instead of cutting my way in front of the goal. I left him behind as I raced out of our zone with the puck. |c1>[I heard OT calling for the pass, but knew he was covered... ]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[Looking right I could see Kathrin outrun their left winger...] ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[In front of me were both of their defensemen...] ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I heard OT calling for the pass, but knew he was covered. He always is. The new guy on the right was nowhere to be seen, so I decided to go for it alone. I ran into the first defenseman who came my way and had to clobber the puck into the attack zone. In the end we lost, as always. (if: $KathrinInTeam is false)[I keep wondering if things would have gone differently if Kathrin was still on the team. She was smart enough but would she have been fast enough?]\ { (replace: ?dp)[us]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.1")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $thirdYearConstant)\ } ]\ (if: $KathrinInTeam is true)[ (replace: ?c2)[Looking right I could see Kathrin outrun their left winger... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[Looking right I could see Kathrin outrun their left winger. She doesn't usually bother skating fast even if the coach wants her to, but maybe she sensed the opportunity. I passed to her, went past a slow defenseman and got the puck back from Kathrin just before the other guy stopped her into the boards. I got a perfect shot into the corner of their goal. What a score! In the end we lost anyway.\ { (replace: ?dp)[us]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.1")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $thirdYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 55)[ (replace: ?c3)[In front of me were both of their defensemen... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[In front of me were both of their defensemen, but one of them was slow so I decided to go for it on my own. I could hear the others screaming at me left and right as I went past the first defender, but by then the rush on and and tunnel vision were at full throttle and I didn't care any more. The second managed to turn me far to the right before I outran him. I got a shot at the goal but the angle was too sharp and their keeper caught it easily. In the end we lost, as always, but what a run-through!\ { (replace: ?dp)[us]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.1")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + 2 * $thirdYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $DavidNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|OT>[OT]"))\ (set: $OTNotes to $OTNotes + (a: "I have no Idea what his real name is, everyone just calls him OT. He's reasonably fast on skates but I think he sees defense work as beneath him. That might still be OK if he ever managed to score, but he rarely ever does."))\ ]\ } ]\ }

(font: "Times New Roman")[(align: "=><=")[###''Rite of Passage'' Version 1.1 Written in Twine 2 (Harlowe) for the Interactive Fiction Competition 2016 by Arno v. Borries. Beta testing by Felicity Banks, Wade Clarke, Keetie, Ade McTravish and verityvirtue. Cover illustration adapted from a Photo by Petritap. Players may want to note that this game includes an autosave function. Playing on the full screen setting is encouraged. The author would like to thank all those who shared their childhood memories with him.]] --- (align: "=><=")[[[Return->Start]]]

''Today is Wednesday'', the 14th of May. The weather is terrible. April was so nice, why does it have to go back to wet and muddy? |dp>[(link-goto: "Caro", "Dramatis Personae")] didn't come to school today. I guess no one would have noticed but Ms. Cloels took the opportunity to talk to us about her. She said Caro knew she was an outsider in the group very well by herself and didn't need to be reminded of it constantly. If we could just leave her in peace. I've not spoken to Caro in months, but neither have I with any of the other girls. I don't know if she's been chaffed by them. Thinking about it though, she's been the subject of some banter amongst the boys, being the baby she still is. After Ms. Cloels had no luck asking us for our opinion for a while, she called up Christine to say something, because she is the class rep, after all. Christine stood up and told her that she'd be totally willing to leave Caro alone if it wasn't for the fact that it was so obvious she was still getting her clothes bought by her mother. Some of the other girls shouted to her in agreement. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[Christine sure knows how to get straight to the point... ]]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I was speechless...] ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[I raised my hand, unable to let that stand...] ]\ |c4>[]\ |c5>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $infatuation > 55)[ (replace: ?c1)[Christine sure knows how to get straight to the point... ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "I have come to like Christine. I can't take my eyes of her. I'm not sure, is this love?"))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[Christine sure knows how to get straight to the point. Ms. Cloels knew nothing to say against that. Caro really needs to sort out her issues if she wants to become someone to be seen with. Anna wanted to say something, too, but Ms. Cloels cut her off and said we should start class.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Caro]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(if: $hatedBySinster is true)[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.2")](else:)[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 4")]]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "Caro really needs to grow up if she wants to be friends with people."))\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $infatuation <= 55)[ (replace: ?c2)[I was speechless... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I was speechless, and so was Ms. Cloels for a moment. I didn't think Christine was right but what could I say? She sat down very smugly. The room seemed even quieter than before. Finally, Anna, very calmly and without raising her hand, said: "Christine, I do not think it is any of your business what Caro wears and where she gets it from." Christine wanted to answer to that but Ms. Cloels found her voice again and cut her off by starting the biology lesson.\ { (replace: ?do)[Caro]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(if: $hatedBySinster is true)[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.2")](else:)[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 4")]]]\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "There is nothing I can do to help Caro, it's a girls thing only the girls can work out."))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Anna stood up to Christine and defended Caro. Christine didn't look very happy about it."))\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "Christine was quick to defend the way the girls treat Caro. Who knows, maybe she bullies her as well?"))\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 50 and $friendship >= 50 and $infatuation <= 50)[ (replace: ?c3)[I raised my hand, unable to let that stand... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I raised my hand, unable to let that stand. Ms. Cloels was obviously thankful for it and called me up. { (replace: ?do)[Caro]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c4)[I said I didn't think there was anything wrong with how Caro dressed... ]\ (click-replace: ?c4)[I said I didn't think there was anything wrong with how Caro dressed. "That's just because you can't dress any better," Christine called out immediately and of course the whole class found it hillarious. That ended the discussion.\ { (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "The whole class had a good laugh at my expense, but I got them to stop their gossip about Caro for the moment."))\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a:"Christine was quick to change the subject onto myself when I started to criticise what she said about Caro."))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a:"Anna told me she was glad I stood up for Caro because this is difficult and maybe even dangerous for a girl to do right now. I wonder why?"))\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $thirdYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation - $thirdYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c5)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(if: $hatedBySinster is true)[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.2")](else:)[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 4")]]]\ } ]\ (replace: ?c5)[I said I didn't think that was any of our business... ]\ (click-replace: ?c5)[I said I didn't think that was any of our business and that it was, in any case, no reason to be mean to Caro. Christine immediately said she herself had never been mean and that she was sure everyone else was just making a joke now and then and that none of that was meant to hurt Caro.\ { (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "I got the girls to stop their gossip about Caro for the moment. Don't know if this will help her much, but at least I tried."))\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a:"I had to shoot down Christine's argument to stop the open gossip about Caro. I hope she doesn't take it badly and realises she was wrong."))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a:"Anna told me she was glad I stood up for Caro but isn't sure it'll help. She tells me Christine will remember me for this. I hope she means Christine will remember me fondly. For some reason I'm not so sure about that."))\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $thirdYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(if: $hatedBySinster is true)[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 12.2")](else:)[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 4")]]]\ } ]\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "She still hasn't started to develop even one bit when most of the other girls are already wearing bras."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Saturday'', the 25th of October. A storm is raging in the darkness ouside my window. Mama and Papa asked Sis and me if we wanted their tickets for the Opera tonight because for some reason they coudn't go themself. So I ended up watching //The Abduction from the Seraglio// together with my sister. I got the goosebumbs even before the overture started, because I spotted two of my classmates: |dp>[(link-goto: "Anna and David", "Dramatis Personae")] were sitting in a loge straight accross from ours. They seemed not to have noticed me. Then the lights went low, the audience went quiet and the music began. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[Let's see if they spot me, I thought...] ]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I decided to hide in the shadow behind the loge curtain...] ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[I waved to them to get their attention...] ]\ |c4>[]\ |c5>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $friendship >= 55)[ (replace: ?c1)[Let's see if they spot me, I thought... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[Let's see if they spot me, I thought. They seemed to give all their attention to the performance so after a while I stopped watching them and turned to what was happening on stage myself. It was not until right after the aria //"These young men who go a-spying"// that I looked over to their loge again. I fliched in my seat when I saw Anna watching me through her binoculars. She waved her hand. { (replace: ?dp)[Anna and David]\ (replace: ?c4)[I waved back at her... ]\ (click-replace: ?c4)[I waved back at her and she signalled to meet them at the snack bar during the break. When we got there Sis told me she'd try to get us a bottle of champagne if we could keep our mouths shut. She managed to get it even though she doesn't really look 16 yet. I guess the bartender must have had a nice day. We emptied it between the four of us. Mozart just gets better when you're tipsy. Anna may have had a little too much. In the end she got bold enough to kiss David on the cheek. He flushed bright red, the lucky bastard.\ { (set: $friendship = $friendship + $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c5)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 14B")]]\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "I think Anna likes David a lot."))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "I have asked him what he thinks about Anna but he won't tell."))\ } ]\ (replace: ?c5)[I pretended not to have noticed her... ]\ (click-replace: ?c5)[I pretended not to have noticed her and retreated behind the loge curtain. I didn't dare look over to them for the rest of the evening.\ { (set: $friendship = $friendship - $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 14A")]]\ } ]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence < 55 and $friendship < 55)[ (replace: ?c2)[I decided to hide in the shadow behind the loge curtain... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I decided to hide in the shadow behind the loge curtain and stayed there for the rest of the performance. I couldn't follow the action on stage very well from there but at least I didn't have to face those two.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Anna and David]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 14A")]]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 55)[ (replace: ?c3)[I waved to them to get their attention... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I waved to them to get their attention. Anna soon saw me and she signalled to meet them at the snack bar during the break. When we got there Sis told me she'd try to get us a bottle of champagne if we could keep our mouths shut. She managed to get it even though she doesn't really look 16 yet. I guess the bartender must have had a nice day. We emptied it between the four of us. Mozart just gets better when you're tipsy. Anna may have had a little too much. In the end she got bold enough to kiss David on the cheek. He flushed bright red, the lucky bastard.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Anna and David]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?c5)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 14B")]]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "I think Anna likes David a lot."))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "I have asked him what he thinks about Anna but he won't tell."))\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "I never knew David liked opera."))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Of course she likes music, so it's not so surprising to see her at the opera. But how come David was there with her?"))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Wednesday'', the 10th of December. I hope today's was the last storm of the season. I've almost finished the blueprints for my model now, but it seems I am the only one really interested in actually building one. Why in the world did the others choose architecture for project week in the first place when they don't intend to build anything? Mr. Commit is seldom in the classroom. I think he prefers the film class for sixth-formers in the studio next door. Thomas is really struggling with his design, he always gets the measurements wrong and I can't see any real plan in his plans. I don't even try to say anything to him about it anymore. |dp>[(link-goto: "Michael and Richard", "Dramatis Personae")] were constantly making fun of him for including a TV room in his design and how he got his education from TV commercials. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[What is he even doing at this school...] ]\ |c2>[Why can't they just leave him alone... ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[I said that clearly that's what they were doing themselves...] ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $friendship < 45)[ (replace: ?dp)[Michael and Richard]\ (replace: ?c1)[What is he even doing at this school... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[What is he even doing at this school? If anything, his grades must be getting even worse if he stays. Really, he'd be better off just leaving. Perhaps that's actually what he wants to achieve?\ { (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 15B")]]\ } ]\ ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[Why can't they just leave him alone? If it's true Michael is just getting As and Bs in every subject why does he have to take it out on anyone? And Richard, on the other hand, really shouldn't be talking. He's in no way better at any of the art subjects than Thomas.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Michael and Richard]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 15A")]]\ } ]\ (if: $confidence >= 60)[ (replace: ?c3)[I said that clearly that's what they were doing themselves... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I said that clearly that's what they were doing themselves and that they shouldn't just assume Thomas was doing the same because of their narrow window to the world. That turned the laughter on them. Michael managed to get a "since when did we ask you for your opinion?" in, but that was just an orderly retreat.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Michael and Richard]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 15A")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $fourthYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "His parents bought him a signet ring and now he's wearing it to school. They don't even have a coat of arms so it only shows his initials. And yet they couldn't wait until his confirmation."))\ (set: $RichardNotes to $RichardNotes + (a: "He and Phillip are now hanging out with people from the comprehensive a lot. Maybe it's because no one in this school likes them any more? Except Michael, I guess."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Saturday'', the 11th of April. Darkness, rain and mud. It's a wasteland. The world abloom seems years away. There was a big commotion yesterday because somehow the teachers must have gotten word of the cannabis thing in our |dp>[(link-goto: "class", "Dramatis Personae")]. Sinster told us he was so disappointed and that the perpetrators would of course have to face the consequences of their actions. The next breaktime, Thomas said he was glad we'd get rid of these idiots now. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[I said yeah, good riddance to them...] ]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I told him to better keep his mouth shut and wait what was going to happen...] ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: true)[ (replace: ?c1)[I said yeah, good riddance to them... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[I said yeah, good riddance to them and we went on joking about it for a while. When I wanted to go home after school I came by Phillip, Michael and Richard beating up Thomas just outside the school gate. There were a bunch of other people standing around and watching. Christine saw me and asked whether I wanted to help Thomas, wasn't I his friend after all? { (replace: ?dp)[class]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (if: $confidence >= 45 and $friendship >= 50 and $infatuation < 60)[ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "She was right, of course... ")[She was right, of course. I dropped my bag and pulled Richard off Thomas. Thomas took the opportunity to get one of his arms free. He pulled a switchblade out of his pocket and thrust it into Michael's belly. As he stabbed him again and again, he screamed at him why he had to make him do this, tears streaming down his face. Before we had Thomas pinned to the ground, Michael was already covered in blood. They had to get him to hospital in a helicopter.\ { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 17")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - 1 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - 2 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $goodEnding = false)\ (set: $AnnaInSchool = true)\ (set: $ThomasInSchool = false)\ } ]\ ]\ ]\ (else:)[(replace: ?c3)[(text-style: "strike")[She was right, of course... ]]]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "I just kept walking past the scene... ")[I just kept walking past the scene and made my way home. If nobody else was going to help Thomas they weren't going to allow me to make a move, either. He'll have to sort out his issues himself. Nothing I could do for him.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 17")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - 2 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - 3 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $goodEnding = false)\ (set: $AnnaInSchool = true)\ (set: $ThomasInSchool = true)\ } ]\ ]\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 60 and $friendship >= 50 and $infatuation < 50)[ (replace: ?c2)[I told him to better keep his mouth shut and wait what was going to happen... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I told him to better keep his mouth shut and wait what was going to happen. The teachers probably know nothing really and I'm sure they don't want to know, either. Sinster was just trying to scare us.\ { (replace: ?dp)[class]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 17")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $goodEnding = true)\ (set: $AnnaInSchool = false)\ (set: $ThomasInSchool = true)\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "He's getting awfully close with Christine lately. I didn't think he was so bold. Is this what the kef does to people?"))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David says he won't take manila ever again if only Anna would speak to him."))\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "Phillip is the one who supplies everyone with the flax."))\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "He thinks those caught in the drug bust are fair game."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Saturday'', the 11th of April. Darkness, rain and mud. It's a wasteland. The world abloom seems years away. There was a big commotion yesterday because somehow the teachers must have gotten word of the cannabis thing in our |dp>[(link-goto: "class", "Dramatis Personae")]. Sinster told us he was so disappointed and that the perpetrators would of course have to face the consequences of their actions. Christine came up to me during breaktime yesterday and asked whether I could arrange a meeting between Anna and her after school. She said she wanted to make up to Anna and would like to do so in a quiet place. She told me to bring Anna to the abandoned construction site behind the subway station. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[If she wanted to make up with Anna, this was the least I could do...] ]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I decided to not go along with it and didn't tell Anna anything...] ]\ |c3>[]\ |c4>[] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: true)[ (replace: ?c1)[If she wanted to make up with Anna, this was the least I could do... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[If she wanted to make up with Anna, this was the least I could do. I told her about Christine's offer. She joked about how Christine was such a coward to ask for this through me but she came along. When we got there, Christine was waiting but so were Phillip, Michael and Richard. Anna tried to run but they caught her and dragged her back behind the hoarding. Christine then told her that ratting on her to the teachers was not going to buy her favours. Anna said she'd never ratted on anyone but that just made Christine even angrier. She told Phillip to go ahead and do to Anna what he'd always wanted to do to her. { (replace: ?dp)[class]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (if: $confidence >= 45 and $friendship >= 50 and $infatuation < 60)[ (replace: ?c3)[ (link-replace: "I tried to stop him... ")[I tried to stop him, but Christine stepped in the way and held me up, giggling. I couldn't get around her, she is in the Basketball club, after all. Anna herself was pinned down by the guys, so Phillip went about it undisturbed. She cried in pain and screamed for help all through it but there was nothing I could do but watch. When they finally let go of her, Anna just pulled down her skirt and ran off without another word. Phillip pocketed her knickers and told me to keep my mouth shut about this if I knew what was good for me.\ { (replace: ?c4)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 17")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - 2 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation - 3 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $goodEnding = false)\ (set: $AnnaInSchool = true)\ (set: $ThomasInSchool = true)\ } ]\ ]\ ]\ (else:)[(replace: ?c3)[(text-style: "strike")[I tried to to stop him... ]]]\ (replace: ?c4)[ (link-replace: "I closed my eyes... ")[I closed my eyes, hoping they wouldn't notice. But I didn't dare cover my ears. Anna cried in pain and screamed for help all through it but there was nothing I could do, was there? When they finally let go of her, Anna just pulled down her skirt and ran off without another word. Phillip pocketed her knickers and told me to keep my mouth shut if I knew what was good for me.\ { (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 17")]]\ (set: $tasteForBooks = $tasteForBooks - $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $tasteForMusic = $tasteForMusic + $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - 3 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - 2 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation - 1 * $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $goodEnding = false)\ (set: $AnnaInSchool = false)\ (set: $ThomasInSchool = true)\ } ]\ ]\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 55 and $friendship >= 65 and $infatuation < 50)[ (replace: ?c2)[I decided to not go along with it and didn't tell Anna anything... ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I decided to not go along with it and didn't tell Anna anything. I went there myself to see if my suspicions had been correct. It doesn't pay to be too curious.Phillip, Michael and Richard were waiting in ambush and really took it out on me. They broke my jaw and wrist and after they'd finished with me Christine told me this was what I'd get for wasting her time. Now I get to spend a few weeks away from school, at least.\ { (replace: ?dp)[class]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 17")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship + $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation - $firstYearConstant)\ (set: $goodEnding = true)\ (set: $AnnaInSchool = true)\ (set: $ThomasInSchool = false)\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "He's getting awfully close with Christine lately. I didn't think he was so bold. Is this what the ganja does to people?"))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "David says he won't smoke dope ever again if only Anna would speak to him."))\ (set: $PhillipNotes to $PhillipNotes + (a: "Phillip is the one who supplies everyone with the maui wowie."))\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "I haven't seen Caro all day. I wonder if she's ill or something."))\ (set: $ChristineNotes to $ChristineNotes + (a: "She must have had some kind of fight with Anna. I don't know what it's about."))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "She must have had some kind of fight with Christine. I don't know what it's about."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Monday'', the 6th of June. We had a couple of nice days and maybe today, too, will turn out sunny yet. { (if: $AnnaStory is true)[ (if: $goodEnding is true)[ Anna and David came to visit me again in hospital today. They tell me Phillip and Richard have been kicked out of school. Of course Christine and Michael only got reprimanded, so Anna won't dare go out on her own. But that's fine because David is always with her now, anyway. ] (elseif: $AnnaInSchool is true)[ Anna came back to school for the first time yesterday. Her mother drove her to school. She didn't speak a word to anyone all day and wouldn't meet my eye. David's letter to the education authority seems to have worked in the end and Phillip, Michael and Richard are finally expelled. Christine didn't even have to change classes and "the principal hopes that the two girls will come to terms with each other". She gets to play Sasha in the upcoming staging of Ivanov. I'm sure she'll be brilliant. ] (else:)[ Anna still hasn't come back to school. David says she doesn't answer the phone. I haven't told him anything, I don't think he knows what happened. How long before he'll find out? ] ] (else:)[ (if: $goodEnding is true)[ Today they made Phillip's getting kicked out public. I guess they had to act with all the dealing going on in plain sight. Thomas says he didn't rat him out but who knows. Anna and David are now a couple. It's top secret, of course, so naturally the whole school knows about it. ] (elseif: $ThomasInSchool is true)[ It's official now: Thomas got Phillip kicked out of school by ratting him out. Naturally, everyone hates him now. To be fair though, Phillip had it coming after he burned Thomas with a cigarette in the face when they had him pinned down by two guys. People have become very cautious since the rumours about the drug-bust started. Anna and David seem to have grown apart, they're not talking to each other anymore. Then again, nobody is talking to me anymore, either. ] (else:)[ Michael came back to school today. He seems alright physically and the principal says he doesn't have anything to fear anymore now that Thomas has finally been expelled. Christine is going to play the part of Sasha in the upcoming staging of Ivanov so I'm definately going to see that. ] ]} Tonight, after dinner, my parents asked me whether I'd like to go abroad for a year or longer if I wanted. They'd looked at a few boarding schools and found one they think I might like. I could start next term. |c1>[I said yes. ]\ |c2>[I said no. ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I said yes.\ { (replace: ?c2)[]\ (set: $boardingSchool = true)\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "End")]]\ (if: $goodEnding is true)[(set: $friendship = $friendship - $fourthYearConstant)]\ (else:)[(set: $confidence = $confidence + $fourthYearConstant)]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I said no.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (set: $boardingSchool = false)\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "End")]]\ (if: $goodEnding is true)[(set: $friendship = $friendship + $fourthYearConstant)]\ (else:)[(set: $confidence = $confidence - $fourthYearConstant)]\ } ]\ }

{ (if: $infatuation < 20)[{(set: $infatuation = 20)}]\ (if: $friendship < 20)[{(set: $friendship = 20)}]\ (if: $confidence < 20)[{(set: $confidence = 20)}]\ (if: $infatuation > 70)[{(set: $infatuation = 70)}]\ (if: $friendship > 70)[{(set: $friendship = 70)}]\ (if: $confidence > 70)[{(set: $confidence = 70)}]\ }

''Today is Sunday'', the 10th of December. I hope today's was the last storm of the season. Training camp ended yesterday. Now I have muscle ache all over. The shaving joke that Sebastian had us play all through the week really got people worked up. It was all, 'Who's next?' after every training session. It was |dp>[(link-goto: "OT", "Dramatis Personae")]'s turn after the test match on Friday evening. We dragged him out of the shower and taped him onto the table. He started crying as Sebastian foamed his pubes. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[I told the others to let him go...] ]\ |c2>[Too bad for him, he should have told us beforehand... ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[What a crybaby...] ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $friendship >= 50)[ (replace: ?c1)[I told the others to let him go... ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[I told the others to let him go, but they wouldn't listen to me, so off went his bush. I guess it won't kill him. Later on we all got drunk. There is nothing else to spend our money on around here anyway. I had four beers before I puked, then another three.\ { (replace: ?dp)[OT]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 15B")]]\ } ]\ ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[Too bad for him, he should have told us beforehand if he has a problem with it, is what I thought. But surprisingly, Sebastian actually stopped and told us to let go of OT. And everyone did. Later on we all got drunk. There is nothing else to spend our money on around here anyway. I had four beers before I puked, then another three.\ { (replace: ?dp)[OT]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 15A")]]\ } ]\ (if: $friendship < 45)[ (replace: ?c3)[What a crybaby... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[What a crybaby, where's the big deal? It was just a little joke. We shaved him properly and I'm sure he'll get over it. Hair grows back. Later on we all got drunk. There is nothing else to spend our money on around here anyway. I had four beers before I puked, then another three.\ { (replace: ?dp)[OT]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 15B")]]\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (if: $OTNotes's length < 1)[ (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|OT>[OT]"))\ (set: $OTNotes to $OTNotes + (a: "I have no Idea what his real name is, everyone just calls him OT. He's reasonably fast on skates but I think he sees defense work as beneath him. That might still be OK if he ever managed to score, but he rarely ever does."))\ ]\ (if: $KathrinInTeam is true)[ { (set: $KathrinNotes to $KathrinNotes + (a: "Kathrin didn't come with us to training camp this year because she's training with the U14 national girls team instead."))\ } ]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Thursday'', the 26th of February. Still below zero. When are they going to get that jammed-open window in our classroom fixed? |dp>[(link-goto: "Phillip and his Crew", "Dramatis Personae")] have been smoking weed in between lessons for a while now. I wonder where they're getting it from, but I'm not going to ask Phillip of all people. It's been catching on now. I think David, Robert and Christine and maybe also some of the other girls have tried it. No teacher ever seems to notice the smell. |c1>[I've got to try it myself sometime... ]\ |c2>[Don't they know drugs destroy people... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I've got to try it myself sometime. Anna is telling me though, that we can be kicked out of school for that kind of thing. She says it'd be easy for someone to get all these people into trouble over it if they wanted.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip and his crew]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 16B")]]\ (set: $AnnaStory = true)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $fourthYearconstant)\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Anna thinks the drugs at breaktime are going too far. She warns me that all those smoking hash will get kicked out of school if the teachers hear about it."))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[Don't they know drugs destroy people. Marijuana is the entry to harder drugs. I wouldn't want to end up as a junky in the streets. Anna even tried telling them, but they just shrugged it off. She got angry and told them they'd get kicked out of school if anyone tattled on them.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip and his crew]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 16B")]]\ (set: $AnnaStory = true)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation - $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $fourthYearconstant)\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Anna thinks the drugs at breaktime are going too far. She says all those smoking hash will get kicked out of school if the teachers hear about it."))\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "I've seen him smoke pot with Christine and David."))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "Anna is furious at David because he has been smoking the buddha. She's been giving him the quiet treatment for a week now. He's really scared."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Thursday'', the 26th of February. Still below zero. When are they going to get that jammed-open window in our classroom fixed? |dp>[(link-goto: "Phillip and his Crew", "Dramatis Personae")] have been smoking weed in between lessons for a while now. I wonder where they're getting it from, but I'm not going to ask Phillip of all people. It's been catching on now. I think David and Christine and maybe also some of the other girls have tried it. No teacher ever seems to notice the smell. |c1>[I've got to try it myself sometime... ]\ |c2>[Don't they know drugs destroy people... ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I've got to try it myself sometime. Thomas is telling me though, that we can be kicked out of school for that kind of thing. He says it'd be easy for someone to get all these people into trouble over it if they wanted.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip and his crew]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 16A")]]\ (set: $AnnaStory = false)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $fourthYearconstant)\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "Thomas thinks the drugs at breaktime are going too far. He warns me that all those smoking hash will get kicked out of school if the teachers hear about it."))\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[Don't they know drugs destroy people. Marijuana is the entry to harder drugs. I wouldn't want to end up as a junky in the streets. Thomas even tried telling them, but they just shrugged it off. He got angry and told them they'd get kicked out of school if anyone tattled on them.\ { (replace: ?dp)[Phillip and his crew]\ (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Entry 16A")]]\ (set: $AnnaStory = false)\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation - $fourthYearConstant)\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $fourthYearconstant)\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "Thomas thinks the drugs at breaktime are going too far. He says all those smoking hash will get kicked out of school if the teachers hear about it."))\ } ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "I've seen him smoke pot with Christine and David."))\ (set: $DavidNotes to $DavidNotes + (a: "Anna is furious at David because he has been smoking herb. She's been giving him the quiet treatment for a week now. He's really scared."))\ } ]\ }

''Today is Friday'', the 11th of July. Rain all day. When do we get to see the start of summer? Today, we got our end-of-year reports. Mr. Sinster handed them out to everyone and told us we'd have to bring them back signed by our parents. He gave me my report last. He showed me the B I had gotten in latin. Then he told me he'd deduct half a mark for every time I'd not done my latin homework this term. "B-, C+, C, C-, D+, D. There you go." He went. |c1>[I asked him whether my performance at the written exams had not been satisfactory... ]\ |c2>[I told him it was unfair to do this to me... ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[I took my report without another word... ]] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[I asked him whether my performance at the written exams had not been satisfactory. He told me that's were the B came from but that not doing my homework amouted to a refusal of performance and he had to take that into account just like my unacceptable classroom behaviour.\ { (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 4")]]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I told him it was unfair to do this to me just because I wasn't sourcing my friends to copy homework at breaktime like everyone else. He said that at least everyone else was making an effort to keep up appearances and that he wouldn't stand beeing treated so disrespectfully by me.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 4")]]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $thirdYearConstant)\ } ]\ (if: $confidence >= 50)[ (replace: ?c3)[I took my report without another word... ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I took my report without another word. I know perfectly well why he's after me and I won't give him the satisfaction to gloat about it in my face any more than neccessary.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 4")]]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence + $thirdYearConstant)\ } ]\ ]\ }

In fact, it was very different, because... |c1>[...I was more gullible. ]\ |c2>[...I was less friendly. ]\ |c3>[...I was less confident. ] --- (align: "=><=")[|tp>[]]\ { (click-replace: ?c1)[...I was more gullible.\ { (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (set: $infatuation = $infatuation + $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Go back to that day", "Beginning")]]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[...I was less friendly.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (set: $friendship = $friendship - $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Go back to that day", "Beginning")]]\ } ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[...I was less confident.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (set: $confidence = $confidence - $fourthYearConstant)\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Go back to that day", "Beginning")]]\ } ]\ }

''Today is Friday'', the 1st of September. Today was probably the last nice day of summer. The forecast says it'll get cooler from tomorrow onwards. We went swimming in the lake in the woods, just like we've been doing all week. This time around though, it was just |dp>[(link-goto: "the five of us", "Dramatis Personae")]. We left our bikes at the big tree, undressed and jumped in from the rock. We had a water fight and after that we got out and lay down in the sun until we were dry again. We talked about school and I found out that they'll be the only ones from my class to go on to the same school as me. |c1>[(text-style: "strike")[That's great, I like them all.] ]\ |c2>[(text-style: "strike")[I wonder what all the new people will be like.] ]\ |c3>[(text-style: "strike")[I hope I'll stay friends with some of the others.] ] --- (align: "==>")[|tp>[]]\ { (if: $friendship >= 45)[ (replace: ?c1)[That's great, I like them all. ]\ (click-replace: ?c1)[That's great, I like them all.\ { (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?dp)[the five of us]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 1")]]\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $confidence >= 45)[ (replace: ?c2)[I wonder what all the new people will be like. ]\ (click-replace: ?c2)[I wonder what all the new people will be like.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c3)[]\ (replace: ?dp)[the five of us]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 1")]]\ } ]\ ]\ (if: $infatuation <= 45)[ (replace: ?c3)[I hope I'll stay friends with some of the others. ]\ (click-replace: ?c3)[I hope I'll stay friends with some of the others.\ { (replace: ?c1)[]\ (replace: ?c2)[]\ (replace: ?dp)[the five of us]\ (replace: ?tp)[(font: "Times New Roman")[(link-goto: "Continue the diary", "Quote 1")]]\ } ]\ ]\ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ { (set: $dramatisPersonae to $dramatisPersonae + (a: "|Anna>[Anna]", "|Caro>[Caro]", "|Michael>[Michael]", "|Thomas>[Thomas]"))\ (set: $AnnaNotes to $AnnaNotes + (a: "Some people think Anna is ice-cold, but I've known her for years and I think she just doesn't talk very much. Maybe it's because of her parents, they're very strict."))\ (set: $CaroNotes to $CaroNotes + (a: "Apparently Caro is very smart, but you wouldn't know that if you looked at her. I guess she's doing alright in most subjects given that she's skipped a grade and is a year younger than everyone else. She's pretty good at home economics, though."))\ (set: $MichaelNotes to $MichaelNotes + (a: "He lives in a fancy new house. His father is a dentist and the place looks like it's a clinic. The downside of that is that there aren't any big old trees or dense bushes in Michael's garden to play proper hide and seek."))\ (set: $ThomasNotes to $ThomasNotes + (a: "Thomas is a nice guy. I'm not sure how he got into the same school with me. He's not very good at maths and he can't play an instrument either. Papa says the requirements aren't the same for everyone and that that's basically a good thing."))\ } ]\ }

(align: "<==")[###''Notes on people I know''] { (print: (sorted: ...$dramatisPersonae).join("")) } --- (align: "==>")[(link-goto: "Return to the diary", (history:)'s last)]\ { (click-replace: ?Anna)[(display: "Anna")]\ (click-replace: ?Caro)[(display: "Caro")]\ (click-replace: ?Michael)[(display: "Michael")]\ (click-replace: ?Thomas)[(display: "Thomas")]\ (click-replace: ?Christine)[(display: "Christine")]\ (click-replace: ?Phillip)[(display: "Phillip")]\ (click-replace: ?Richard)[(display: "Richard")]\ (click-replace: ?David)[(display: "David")]\ (click-replace: ?Sis)[(display: "Sis")]\ (click-replace: ?Sebastian)[(display: "Sebastian")]\ (click-replace: ?Kathrin)[(display: "Kathrin")]\ (click-replace: ?OT)[(display: "OT")]\ (unless: $i < 1)[ (set: $i = $i-1)\ ]\ (unless: $j < 1)[ (set: $j = $j-1)\ ]\ (unless: $k < 1)[ (set: $k = $k-1)\ ]\ }

''Anna'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $AnnaNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

{ (unless: $visitedPassages contains (passage:)'s name)[ (set: $visitedPassages to $visitedPassages + (a: (passage:)'s name))\ ]\ }

''Caro'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $CaroNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''Michael'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $MichaelNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''Thomas'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $ThomasNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''Christine'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $ChristineNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''Phillip'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $PhillipNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''Richard'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $RichardNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''David'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $DavidNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''Sebastian'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $SebastianNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''Kathrin'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $KathrinNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''Sis'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $SisNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }

''OT'' { <ul style="list-style-type:circle"> <li> (print: $OTNotes.join("</li><li>")) </li> </ul> }